Note(s) to (Future) Self:

①Nothing is as hard as it seems. Or as Easy.
②Working with design is not an end in itself. Are you making good design? Are you working with good people? Are you having a good time?
③Rushing things does not make them happen faster. Good design happens when you're bored and forced to really think.
④Who can afford to be critical?
⑤Wage a war with the obvious.
⑥I feel very inadequate writing this, because if all goes well you are much smarter than I and a bit less scared. You are probably still stressed out all the time, but things will settle. Take a break once in a while, touch grass.